I'm so tired. I can't sleep, but I'm so tired. And I have to be awake in 4 hours. Even worse a friend of mine will be up for work at 6 and I was at their house till 1:30. Need a timer.
I'm so sick. I'm so sick of being sick but I like it. I like being pissed off. I hate being pissed off. I can't explain how much easier it is to hate. To be bitter. Let it consume.
I did something tonight I swore I would never do again. And I didn't care. I wanted to so I did. Usually where I have self control I had none. I got lost in the moment. Reprecussions will come. They will come. But what am I to do?
This is no suprise. I am hate. I am pain. why should I care. Why should I bother. Pain and frustration, more pain. It's all I now. It's all I am.
Monday, August 4, 2008
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